It's time you did something about your temper.
When you find yourself apologizing, time and again, for losing your temper, it's a safe bet you're not being sincere, but instead, indulging in your slightly sadistic side. Don't be too alarmed. This is a streak most of us are born with and, in fact, little children take pleasure in the act of hitting. That is until they learn such actions have consequences.
As children get older, some of this aggression becomes verbal. This is about the time mother said things to you like, "watch your words" or " don't be rude." More often than not, these admonitions were followed closely by a spanking or two and eventually, you learned to control your tongue.
However some of you, only hid this tendency, and now that you're adults - with few deterrents - you give free reign to your tantrums; screaming at colleagues, spouses and staff alike; at times even making some cry. Afterward, under the pretense of remorse, you will apologize in order to save face and try to appease your conscience.
That doesn't work because, deep down, you know better and your conscience can't be fooled. Now you feel guilt but guilt, without punishment, creates burden. Burden is hard to carry and should be relived.
Therefore, just as when you were a child, you must be punished, and this punishment must be serious, strict and thoroughly beyond your control.
I suggest you present yourself before a strong and capable woman; one who will take no guff - bend you over her knee and spank your bare bottom severely. Spank it until the pain wipes out your brain , tears flow and your red behind is hot and stings to the touch. Kicking and begging will not stop the blows and when she decides she's done, you are weak and unable to sit comfortably for days.
That is the way to truly atone. Then you will be guilt free, relived of burden and enjoy a cleared mind and a clean conscience.
It will behoove you to bear this in mind, because the day of reckoning is at hand and the apologies you make for your verbally sadistic behavior are woefully inadequate.
A good, hard, over the knee, bare bottom spanking is the only thing that will ever set the record straight,
Boys Learn When Bottoms Burn